I decided late last night on my word for 2014. I had been contemplating several words and each time I felt I had made a decision I could see the benefits of the other words! I read something inspiring on the first Moonshine lesson where Effy had referred to a Danielle LaPorte e-book. The idea behind her words is that rather than seeking to achieve goals, we should actually seek to attain a feeling, and emotional state. That the pursuit of goals and plans will follow this much more harmoniously.
Naturally I have been thinking a lot since 28th November and I had pretty much decided to use TRUTH. After reading this article I changed my mind. Truth isn’t an emotional state to me, although I do want to live my truth it didn't quite encapsulate what I want to pursue this year. I settled instead on AUTHENTIC, the idea of living my life and being authentic to my beliefs, my morals, to my Higher Self and who I really am. The trouble with this, the scary part, is that I have completely forgotten who I am! I have lost my authentic self and need to do a lot of soul searching to find myself again before I can even begin to live a life of authenticity.
When I was walking to work this morning I gave this some thought and had some really good insights into my own character. I thought about who I used to be when I was in my late teens, how I acted what I believed:
• I was very organised with people's birthdays and always had cards/presents sorted well in advance,
• I was fascinated by mythology, Egyptology, numerology and astrology.
• I loved crystals
• I loved to learn things and teach myself things
• I enjoyed spending time on my own, never lonely, always busy doing something.
I have lost so much of who I am and what I believe.
My vow for Moonshine, and this New Moon phase, is to do daily journaling to discover who my authentic self really is. I may re-look at the OLW project I started following last year with Ali Edwards. I won't pay to do the project again, but I can use last year notes for this years word and adapt to suit – doing the parts I enjoy and changing the parts I didn't.
All in all I am excited for 2014 – excited for the adventure that is ahead in the reclaiming of my Self and the renewal of my relationship with my Beloved.